Feeling the need to get another tattoo … but what, and where? Thinking maybe another ‘A Song of Ice and Fire’ quote?

Just had an interview for a pretty amazing job. Fingers x’d I get it!

How is it fair that there are so many girls who are knocked up, really don’t want the baby and weren’t trying at all, when there are so many couples trying to start their own family and nothing is happening?

How is that fair?

These couples would make wonderful parents and the babies would want for nothing, yet the babies being born are to people who are struggling themselves and not in stable relationships/households in an environment not fit to bring up a baby.

These are just my personal feelings due to finding out a girl I went to school with who is a druggie, with a boyfriend in a gang, is pregnant and still smoking.

Some people just need to be punched in the face. With a chair. Or table. Or entire dining suite.

In one of those moods where I just feel like going to sleep and not waking up.

Or drinking, alot.

Fish Huntin’ this weekend was awesome, except now the photos are up on facebook and my mind is just like “you are a fat digusting pig, please just kill yourself so you don’t embarrass yourself and Matt ever again.”

Sometimes I so wish I had a fairy godmother or a genie in a bottle to make me beautiful and perfect like he deserves.

Feel like going out, getting wasted and having a bit of fun.
Instead I am at home on the couch watching ‘Come Dine With Me’ and surfing the net for baby bassinets - for the non-existent baby!

(Don’t get me wrong, Come Dine With Me is one of my guilty pleasure shows, it’s just not really what I feel like doing right now!)

I keep having dreams that I’m 6 months pregnant and able to feel the baby moving inside me. In the dream I am stressed, depressed and am alone trying to find Matt.

These dreams have been reccurring over the last 2 weeks and it’s freaking me out!

I so badly want a baby, but after the last weekend of drinking and fun with friends I think I’m second guessing everything - but I really don’t want to second guess it! Argh, so confused! But then am I really confused, or is it just the dreams that are confusing me?

And on top of that I need to start back at the gym and get my ass into gear to get fit and healthy again!

Got ridiculously drunk last night with some friends, and it was amazing! Haven’t had that much fun in so long!

Feeling a little worse for wear today though, I am actually struggling to remember most of the night :/

We thought the hard part was over - but we were wrong. Living is the hardest part. Figuring out how to live your life when you’re all busted up inside and out - there is nothing harder.

We walk alone through this world, but if we’re lucky, we have a moment of belonging to something, to someone, that sustains us through a lifetime if loneliness.

What do you hope for?
What do you believe in?
But most important, what do you love?